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Something in the air...

If you're going to press play - "Nothing Song" by Sigur Ros

Something has changed...

I haven't been able to sleep for the past few days in any significant amount. Laying in my bed a few minutes ago, I was running my hand against the wall. It's hot in here, and I love the feel of the cold wall against my hands...

I just feel less embattled. That conflict is gone within my soul... After the past month, even the past few years for some reason I feel as though... I don't know how to put it.

Is this some kind of peace?

I've been fighting so long that I don't really know how to do anything other than survive. I'm just so weary these days. I'm tired of being tortured on a daily basis.

So what do I do now? It's so hard to strike a balance between memories and hope, the past and the future. I am who I am because of the things that have happened to me...

I just want to wake up ONE morning and have my heart not be so heavy. Maybe tomorrow will be that day.