White Flag.

If you are going to press play - "Loving the Alien" by Velvet Revolver

Sometimes I think I'm scared
Sometimes I know
I feel like making love
Sometimes I don't
I feel like letting go
Maybe not
I feel like giving up
Is all we got

Sometimes is all the time
And never means maybe
Sometimes is all the time
Maybe

After the talk with Kelly last night, I have no idea about where anything is going from here. I just don't get it anymore.

Should I just give up? Is that what she wants from me?

:(

She makes me so happy, but she can make me feel so sad sometimes.

:)

:)

Pistons!

I went out to Royal Oak to watch the championship game... The pistons won 100-87 in a blowout. I guess Kobe should have kept his jail-bound mouth shut instead of giving a guarantee that they would win.

The game was good, but other than that I had a pretty shitty night.

:(

I woke up this morning with that kick-in-the-stomach feeling. I guess I'm more hurt than I thought I would be, and I don't know where to go from here.

I want to write this big long thing about Kelly and my relationship with her... I just don't have the heart to. I am completely and utterly defeated at this point, and nothing I say has, or ever will make a difference.

She broke my heart last night. I know it wasn't intentional but it happened and I'm going to have to deal with it.

:(

Velvet motherfucking Revolver!

Although I have been "previewing" it for the past week, the new VELVET REVOLVER album came out today.

Go buy it.

Welcome to the fallout...

If you are going to press play - "I dare you to move" by Switchfoot

She said: "You make me so mad sometimes"
I said: "You make me so sad sometimes"

Sigh.

Sometimes it's hard to pretend.

You close your eyes and smile at me
and I melt every time
I want to kiss you so bad I could scream
but I can't
These chains of retraint are fireworks of caution
and I'm only human