[x]a relevant thought of horizontal.

If you are going to press play - "Devil's Broom" by Joseph Arthur (album - our shadows will remain)

Every time when I can't get enough to make it
Give me back every sense that I used to have
Waking up with my face down on the pavement
Everything that I own in a garbage bag

Where are you?
What did I do?
Why can't you see?
You mean everything to me...to me

Waking up in the tank, disorderly break-up
And no one here will even tell me what I did
With the guilt and the shame completely vacant
It's hard to stay alive when you don't know how to live

Where are you?
What did I do?
Why can't you see?
You mean everything to me...to me

Since you've gone ain't nobody else gonna save me
Cause I can't trade a bottle for an empty room
I just pray that the lord gonna come down and take me
Sweep me off the floor with the devil's broom

Where are you?
What did I do?
Why can't you see?
You mean everything to me...to me


[x](SIGH)lent Hill.

I had been looking forward to this movie for a few months...

Why can't we push the envelope in american horror? Where is the uncompromising vision that scares the hell out of you?

Argh. There was so much of this movie that was really amazing. The visuals were insane. I know that

What pisses me off is halfway through the movie they introduce a bunch of crappy secondary character to tie in with the lame backstory... And it takes you out of everything you spent the previous hour buying in to.

They always do this. Everytime they adapt anyting they screw it up. The stupid kid sidekick in THE CROW. Nancy (jessica alba) not gettind naked in SIN CITY *I mean FFS she is supposed to be the hottest stripper in the world and gets naked all over the place in the comic*.

I hate kid sidekicks. I hate crappy secondary characters. I hate when they use some candyass stupid backstory to tell us what we already know (or don't need to know) - can we please stop assuming the audience are idiots?

Too much compromise destroyed this movie. Almost, Christopher Gans (director - also directed BROTHERHOOD OF THE WOLF which I loved) - you almost had it. What could have saved this would be a re-edit. 2 hours could have been a tighter hour and a half.

Sigh - well there is always J-horror. THE RING is still my favorite horror movie. I mean HORROR. I want to be kept up at night scared, not scratching my head why they screwed up another perfectly good concept.


[x]chaotic neutral.

The past is nothing more than a fuse lit behind us.

The worst part of this game is realizing I'm playing it.


[x]holding pattern.

How many people look PAST their vacations?

First I want to congratulate my sister Chelsie and my new brother-in-law Brad on a wonderful wedding. Everything went well, and I want nothing but the best for you now and in the future.

This past weekend has been a blur. In all honesty, all of March was a blur. I've changed since the blowout, since I met her. My life went from a sort of defeated calm to a complete uproar with everything going recently. The blowout, St. Patty's, my sister's wedding... Las Vegas for Paul and Rachel's wedding this week.

I leave on thursday, but for some reason I am aleady looking forward to getting home. Is that wrong? It's not that I don't want to go, I know I will have a good time and should be alot of fun to see the boys again in Sin City. I shouldn't be looking past this trip, because I feel that it will be a significant event.

The odd feeling is - I have felt like this for the past few weeks. Everything that has came and went... I guess it has all been spent with one foot in the present and one in the future. Which I suppose is better than one in the present and one in the past... the way I have spent the majority of the past 5-6 years of my life.

There is just this sense of guilt within, I can't put my finger on it quite yet. I don't know what is wrong with me.

Maybe I feel guilty because everything has been so hectic, and I just want a return to normalcy. Work should be getting back to normal in the next week or two, so that should be really nice. Or maybe I am just looking forward to having something to come back to for once, should be a really nice feeling to know that I am going to be missed.

Everything is so jumbled. I don't even know what to say. Does any of that make sense?