[x]the attention she commands.

come back to me, baby, when you're about to break
oh, i understand the attraction
not many people get to my age so unscathed
my soul is not bitter nor shattered
as so many others that have fallen or settled
i watch them every time
as they fall in love
with the complexity, the measured eloquence of every statement
so look in my eyes
and find solace in the rogue again
just make sure that you deserve me
because i'm not settling for anything less
than an epic love
if you're going to be with me
then be ready to take on the world
because i will not be contained
or collected, or possessed, or bought, or sold
as so many of your predecessors have tried to do
they never learned the one lesson
that i have to teach
if you're going to try and love me
then buckle up, sugar
and hold on as tight as you can
don't you dare let go if you're that lucky
for me to actually love you back
because the one thing you need to know about the woman i love
is that she is only as good as the attention she commands

[x]press release.

my hand has finally been forced -
i will no longer be overtaken
by simple proximity
because the end never justified the means
i have settled for way to long
this is the line i had to draw
when made to suffer doubt one too many times
this is directed at you
my future will no longer be limited by your pasts
because i am better than that
i had to be reminded
of who and what is actually worth pining for
what i once thought superwomen
is nothing when measured against the standard
that i actually remembered to pack this time
i haven't been me in forever
the way i stuck myself in your empty spaces
and calling myself defined
by whatever would fit in your mad libs template

[x]running the gambit.

things have come full circle so many times
that i'm dizzy
i must have gotten turned around -
trying to find my way back to where i belong
though all of the characters beckon
and call home something different
right now i don't know if i am existing
in the prologue or epilogue of my life
all i know is this main character
is capable of both heroism and villainy
i am the pro-antagonist if there is such a thing
so, in my heart's metaphoric reality
please don't fault me for pressing advantage
as i run this gambit
daring myself with every passing day
how many of these plot threads can i maintain
until they weave themselves into a life line
or fashion itself into a noose?