Well my memorial day weekend is about over. We had a LAN on saturday, DnD on sunday, and today all I did was indulge and watch the SOPRANOS. I worked on my site, and am very happy how it turned out.

Over the course of this weekend I treated myself to all of the fast food, pizza, vanilla coke/pepsi, and sour gummi worms that I could handle. Now I am sick. Which is good.

For some reason or another I had stopped working out and eating right over the past few weeks. I am not sure if it was just exhaustion or depression or a combination of both.

Starting tomorrow, I am going to try to be healthier. Normally I would promise but all I can guarantee is that I will try. I am going to try and swim, run, rollerblade, walk, go to the gym, or get on the treadmill for an hour a day. Everyday. I realized that I have spent 27 hours of my life in the past few weeks watching the SOPRANOS, and I could have spent that time doing something constructive while I watch. I have 133 dvds now and could just pick one everyday while I get on the treadmill downstairs.

What brought this on? Well I was doing so well earlier this year with the gym, fight club, and my diet. I was feeling pretty damn good about myself and had alot of energy. That has since left me.

Work has gotten back to full time, so I had to quit fight club. I know that I am going to lose about 20lbs working my ass off this summer, and I would like to do something more with the my body. I hate it when someone takes pictures of me, and over the past few years I have become self concious about how I look.

So, I am glad that I am sick to my stomach right now. I don't think I could look at another sour gummi worm.



between the lines
between the words
between the humor, playfulness, and wit
subtleties of intimacy
as much said as unsaid
in the silence i swear i can hear you smile


Velvet Revolver & Silvertide Concert

Typically, opening bands suck. You've never heard of them, you don't know any of their songs, etc. So when SILVERTIDE took the stage last night I was skeptical. Right away the lead guitar came out and went crazy. A few songs in and I was hooked. They are kind of a throwback band (Late 80's, not hair band but PURE rock and roll), a type of music that I have come to enjoy very much.

After the show I met the lead singer, Walt. He was a really cool and personable guy. Really humble and thankful that I enjoyed the show. He signed a WRIF poster logo thingy for me... Definately looking forward to picking up their debut album "Show & Tell" on June 8th.

Then VELVET REVOLVER took the stage. One word:

In case you don't know - Velvet Revolver is made up of the ex members of Guns n Roses and former Stone Temple Pilots frontman Scott Weiland.

"Detroit Rock City motherfucker!" - Scott Weiland

Scott Weiland was electric. He has always been one of my favorite lead singers (STP) but he just pushed his way to the top of my list.

The band was no slouch either. You would think that the ex-GNR guys would have lost a step. This wasn't the case at all - which was proved when they covered a few STP songs ("Crackerman" and "Sex Type Thing")

They were just on FIRE. They played a bunch of songs off of their new album, ("Contraband" - also dropping June 8th.) Where I only knew the one song "Slither".

VR also played a few GNR songs, but the most amazing *Cover* was "Negative Creep" by Nirvana.

I can't wait for their cd. It was the best concert I have ever been to.


Out of sight, but not out of mind.

Well, Paul beat me to it... I took my mother out to see VAN HELSING. Honestly? Walking out, I was thinking - It's not really that bad, but not really good either. It left me with a neutral feeling. Having time to think about it since and make a decision... I have come up with the following conclusion:

THE GOOD: Kate Beckinsdale is HOT...
THE BAD: Everything else... This movie sucks. I would say RENTER but go see it at the dollar show because it's cheaper. Or NETFLIX it and watch a TON of movies that month to drive the overall cost down. The jury is still out on whether it was worse than LXG or not. My movie tax has been paid this year. :)

After last night and a long day at work today... I don't think I am capable of doing anymore than lounging around and watching THE SOPRANOS. I just finished the first season, about to pop in the first disc of the second. Netflix is great.

Tomorrow I have a tour of Specs Howard tomorrow at 5pm. Definately looking forward to it.

Why do I find myself hesitating to write what I really want to say?


If only I were an ostrich...

If ignorance is bliss, THEN KNOCK THE SMILE OFF MY FACE
- Rage Against the Machine "Settle for nothing"


Outwit, Outplay, Outlast

Oh well, the Robfather didn't win the million dollars. Which is really sad because he outplayed EVERYONE. Honestly it came down to Lex being a fucking crybaby sore loser. You suck Lex.

But he did win ONE HELL of a consolation prize...

Ambuh is HOT. Congratulations!

Go Boston Rob!

Well tonight is the survivor finale. It's down to the Robfather, Ambuh, Jenna and Rupert. Go Rob! Honestly he deserves to win, as he has outplayed and outlasted everyone.

What sucks is that the jury members hate him. Just like Nyko said they are hating the player, not the game. Hypocrites. The game isn't about making friends and being "fair" - it's about WINNING. Everything is all fine and dandy until you HAVE to stab someone in the back. It's the point of the game.

If Rob gets into the final two I hope it's with Ambuh. That way at least they would be a couple (unless she wins and dumps his ass) and he could see part of the million dollars. If it comes down to the two of them then the JURY is screwed by having to pick the lesser of two evils.



Semacode is basically an URL barcode. A visual representation of a hyperlink. Important? No, not really. Just something that I read on slashdot earlier.

Here is what www.deaDpiXeL.org ***LOOKS LIKE!***

Ha Ha I have semacode and you DO NOT.


New gmail account...

I have changed my main email to:
Everyone who reads... please send me an email so I can get my new address book straightened out. Thanks!



I have decided to give NETFLIX a try... Basically because I want to catch back up on the first 4 seasons of THE SOPRANOS and it is cheaper to get it from netflix than to rent it. Less of a hassle too.

So far, I have 33 movies qued up to be sent to me... I don't think netflix has any idea how fast I can watch movies so I think I am getting a good deal. My mom has a subscription to it and gets through about 6 or so movies a month... I plan to watch my 33 dvds and cancel my membership. I can do that in about 2 months I think if they send me 3 discs at a time (twice a week if I mail them right back) - So 6 dvds a week... about a month and a half.



If you are going to press play "Blue" by A Perfect Circle (Thirteenth step)

I thought these lyrics from the song were appropriate...

Mistook their nods for an approval
Just ignore the smoke and smile

Reset Button.

I am glad April is over. Just seemed like an emotionally intense month and now the dust is beginning to settle.

I have decided to give up Lineage 2 after all. Which sucks because I just bought the game a few days ago. I have various auctions up on ebay... so hopefully I can break even, if not come out ahead for all of the hours I dumped into that game. I am going to take some time off from the MMORPGs (Barring I don't get into the WoW beta). The grind just hurts... and starting over hurts. I always seem to pick the wrong classes in these games and find that the grass is greener somewhere else.

Hopefully rogue will be cool in WoW. Just not sure what race I am going to play.