[x]muted red.

the muted trail
tiny dots of red
oh, the state you left me in
and here i am
still leaving the wound open
refusing to let you become
just another scar

[x]the light in her.

there is a light in her
forgotten by the shade in me
a warmth to my coldness
as typically aligned
the circumstance random
and the timing to be desired
story of my life
a shame
that i only have to offer
my humble number 9

[x]sidestep parallel

slashed and burned in her advance
my retreat leaves me nothing
all i can do is sidestep
as we run in parallels
a caged animal
pacing back and forth
trying at all costs
to avoid backpeddling into oblivion

[x] Drawing you out.

From almost forever away
I feel your thoughts flicker like a siren
and I wonder
if you feel mine in return
there is danger even in caution
do I dare
try to draw you out?

[x] Cardi Ex Machina.

cliche to even say

that if you bothered to touch my heart

you would find it broken

yet still beating

powered by the machinations of my denial

my vain pride

cardi ex machina

when i tell myself

that i am not a walking consolation prize

[x]No Better.

we are fallen
yet angels just the same
we atone
by justifying our transgressions
galvanized by pain
yet strip mined by guilt
no better
than the ones who stole our grace

[x]Interchangeable Alibis.

In the past
there is no opportunity
only certainty
present purgatory
and the future
paved in the blocks of time
in these interchangeable alibis
I cannot remember to forgive you

[x]cipher horizon.

how can you not see it?
it's all there
my whole life on display
i lie in wait
but cannot lie just the same
single truth is nothing more
than looking between the lines
of my delicate horizon
waiting to be undone
by the simplest of ciphers

[x]How To Destroy Muses.

the difference thin
between stricken and smitten
to this day
i can feel the blackness on my heart
as your poison
still courses it's way through my veins
seems all i can do is wait
until it breaks
this opposite of a fever in me

[x]novacaine shade.

my novacaine heart
leaves me on floor
switching places with my shadow
it now stands in my place
and i am dragged
by the very shade of me