[x] Passion Aggression

the middle of the alphabet part 1 - passion aggression

i've said that we're okay until we aren't
and today i am no longer content
when you are merciless in your compassion
then i all i can do is appear ruthless in my indifference
with anyone else i could keep up this facade
you're the only one who sees my mask slip
feeling my resentment for not allowing me to hide from you
and forcing the vulnerability out of me
it's truly a shame that you had to meet me after the fall
when i couldn't even bother looking up from rock bottom
my sullied hands still clawing at the dirt
seeing if i could dig myself in any further
i was so preoccupied with my destruction
that i never allowed us to create anything
and for that i know you may have forgiven me
even if i can never bring myself to
because you've always deserved better than who i've been
so much so that i wish we'd never met until now
you came into my life when i was at my weakest, my darkest
and i was thankless when you still tried to see my grace
i cannot fix the side effects of pain
between the breakups, the madness, and the sadness of it all
the one thing i truly regret that i cannot go back
and redeem who i used to be for our sake
it's plain to see that we love each other slightly less
than we've convinced ourselves it won't work
we've never quite have been able to vocalize it
these and those words seem like such an empty gestures
maybe i'm completely and utterly wrong
but i know i shoulder all of the blame
when i am with you, i just want to be the man reflecting in your eyes
i just want you to finally see
that when you go to leave i'd wish you'd just stay
and when you are gone
i still know you would never hurt me
yet you leave me destroyed just the same

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